Forgiving

Forgive to forget. Forget to Forgive?
Both hard, neither easy.
The love I felt was strong, yet was never real at all
I forgive you for the time we wasted, the time we held.
The time we had, and the time that I thought it was real.
The smiles we shared, the laughs we had. When time seem to never exist, and our love was true.
I'm sorry for the time I wasted, when I thought everything was ok.
I guess you and me were truly never meant to be. To be happy and free.
Can you forgive me? Forgive me, for the tears I shed, the anger I released, the shame I brought you.
I forgive you for the mistakes, the sorrow you brought upon me, the sadness which deepened in my soul.
To the depths in which there might not be a return of life. I. . . forgive you.

love

Love, one of the most powerful emotions we hold as human beings. It drives us to do many things. From the most compassionate things to the craziest. It can not be truly defined, only felt in my personal opinion. Many people say “ You'll know when you feel love.” or “ Love is one of the strongest bonds that two people can have between each other.” I truly believe in that. The love between two people, like a mother to her son. Or Husband to his wife. The bond is something special and almost unbreakable. Let me explain these to help give a better understanding.

One, major example would be a mother to her son and or daughter. Moms have an uncanny ability to sense when somethings wrong, to know when w need something or even when we going to do something that they know we'll need help with before asking. Mothers know how to heal us when sickness captures us; when depressed, knowing how to make our spirits rise. The   natural love that they hold for us specifically is love that can never be broken.

Rejection

Rejection, being denied or feeling of not being wanted at all in any way, shape or form. Rejection is one of the things that can either make us stronger or tear is down into nothing. Sad to say that this true. We live for acceptance in our lives, not to be put Down and not to be denied happiness. I've been rejected, too many to say, to many to think about. To many bad memories of the sorrow and pain. To face and deal with rejection; all deals with you and your mentality. " am I strong enough to accept this or will I let this take me down and wrap me in despair?" Always ask yourself this, you'll know when your ready to face rejection. To be able to rise above it. People react to rejection as one the most hardest task to take, when reality it's only a part of life. We can not escape it. Only embrace it and become more powerful for it.

Responsibility

Most situations that happen because of the ambiguity of others is simply because of one persons thoughtlessness. If one person would look out for the other and then vice versa then most accidents would be avoided in today's community. As the examples given, A fell off because of he or she's own recklessness. B has nothing to do with A being homeless. Then again, It's B's fault for giving A his car that had faulty brakes which then got A into an accident. This can be all be avoided of one takes responsibility in them selves. Determining responsibility is some times not the easiest thing. Some people don't want to take any responsibility at all. They feel as if they don't need to Others that do take responsibility tend to have less problems though. This is just my personal view on it. If I ever get into a situation that involves me , such as these on here. Then I would take responsibility in each one of them. Whether it be me falling off the roof or giving me friend a bad car. I will take my responsibility for it. No matter the consequences.

The First

The  First Drawing

For years I wanted to be a great drawer like my brother. Ever since I could remember, each drawing he drew was jaw dropping. He even drew himself to the littlest detail, and it was magnificent. His face, eyes, body, everything was to the right proportion and I still look at it in awe to this day. He became an inspiration to me, and ever since then I've wanted to be an artist. So one day after drawing, I decided to start a project. I named it “The First One.” It was a simple, just draw myself. I began to do so, first I found a picture of myself that I liked and began drawing that. I thought it was going to be an easy thing to do, but it turned out the be the hardest drawing I've ever attempted. I was having problems with the sizing of each aspect of the drawing. The eyes, lips, etc. So I decided to call my brother up and see if he could help me. We were able to get together an then he looked over what I had so far. He showed me how everything on a person's face, lines up with other features of the face. The middle of the eyes line up with the end of your lips. The top of the ears line up with the end of the eye brows. Also, the bottom of the ears line up with the end of the end of your lips. So from here we began drawing the picture and in the end, it came out wonderful. I felt so accomplished when we finished it. From that day forward, I knew that I could draw great things and I hope to someday. I thank my brother for that. This is the drawing, hope you like it.

The Unknown

.People throughout life have explored the unknown for many reason. Some search for closer  curiosity, and maybe even for a higher purpose. B Franklin sailed the ocean to find out whether the earth was flay or round, turns out, it is round. civilization has searched the unknown to find out what is out there in the world. The good, bad, and ugly. Discovering beautiful places to the most horrific ones. No matter how dangerous, man will explore the unknown.
    Some individuals have the unknown in order to find themselves, find there own purpose in life, or maybe to find something to live for. People want to discover new things because they believe that theirs somehting out there that wants to be found. On the other hand, others have explored to expand one's own knowledge of the world. A individual's exploration of life, can become one's ultimate goal in life.
     Sadly though. there is a catch to this. Those who have explored the unknown have given a lot, in order to explore. Some have left there homes, family, friends, jobs, and maybe there entire lives behind just to explore and find whatever there looking for.No matter the cost. The cost to these people seems to be meaningless to them, but to others its high. All in the end though, some find what there looking for and others,. . . don't. Exploring the unknown is a wonderful thing, and a dangerous thing as well.

Truth and Deception

Truth, lies. The difference between them can be very thin and the very large, depending on the way you look at it. In any situation, telling the truth or telling a lie all depends on the person's mind set. Whether that person feels, "threaten", or "pressured" to lie. Or even forced to tell the truth. The word 'lie' tends to disgust me. I do understand that lying is indeed, wrong. In any shape or form. I also do understand that telling the truth isn't an easy thing to do as we'll. there have been times where I have lied in order to protect my self. I still didn't like the idea of doing so. I've come to learn that telling the truth, really does set you free. It may not be the type of free that I'm thinking of but none the less. The point that I want to get across is that, it's better to avoid situations were to do not have to lie at all. Then to put yourself I that position to begin with. Lies may get you out of trouble, but ultimately will cause you nothing but pain and suffering. While the truth will is everlasting and free.

Passing

School, the one place where you can find out whether you are going places, or possibly not. You'll have your ups, your downs, and mostly your twist and turns of good and bad. Sometimes school is good to me sometimes its not. In the end though, I know its the best for me. My academics, the struggles, accomplishments, and my aspirations. Are all that make me, me.

Struggles, I only have three. Procrastination would be one of them. It has caught me to many times to count. It doesn't matter if its homework, projects, and essays. It's truly a horrible thing to have on you. With time though I've been able to over come this fault of mine. I have learned and seen that this work that is top priority and that this has to be done. One way or another. Now, my second one would be focusing. Sometimes it becomes difficult for me to focus in class when I'm either tiered, headache or something thing of that sort. Also with all the noise from the other students doesn't help either. Don't get me wrong, I love a good chat as much the next guy but this education must come first. With time though I've been able to focus more while blocking out sounds and focusing on one voice at a time. However, there is one struggle that beats the first two, and that's physical science. At times, the reading gets to be a bt much for me. It isn't that I can't read it all, it's that I tend to get headaches a lot from doing so. Also the memorization can be a challenge as well. For example the periodic table. At first, I thought that it was going to be impossible for me, but now I almost have have of the thing memorized. With all this in mind though, I have accomplished a lot as well.

My first major accomplishment would have to be finishing the first year of early college as a freshman and now being a sophomore. Completing that task wasn't an easy one. The work load was new, the teaching styles were different, and the atmosphere was new to me. The feel of the college was so interesting to me that it felt like a field trip. Though as time went on, it began to feel like any other high school. Just normal. It wasn't any easier having to do it alone but I did it still and i'm in my second year. Now before this though during my middle school years I was in orchestra playing violin and I won a scholarship to Baldwin Wallace college for two weeks and play in a show. That was a time to remember. The music, the food, the people (girls) were amazing. The entire time there was great and I learned so much there, made friends and ate like a king. I'll never forget the day I got that scholarship. Beyond all this though I do have some goals after high school.

I want to become a male RN and or EMT. Both of these fields aren't easy to get into. This woud be my way of being able to get back to people and being able to help them in a way that makes there life easier and more comfortable. Saving lives is just something that I've always wanted to do for some reason. I never knew why I start aspiring for this so much but this is what I'm shooting for. To see another person live to see the sun rise again and to see that smile on there face. That's what I want. Also if not this field, I wouldn't mind becoming a mechanic or an technician. Mainly with cars of course. Cars have always interested me and I just like the sound of the car when it turns on and to hear that “pur” you could say. None the less, This is what I'm going for and hopefully I make it one day. Now, all this together is what my high school experience is like.

The trials that I've gone through have been good and bad but never wrong. The struggles have made me stronger. The accomplishments have made me happy and ready to do more. Also my dreams make me more determined to be better for myself. MY academics will be decided on my own terms and I will make my dreams a reality.

people an there worthless

Some people have no lives. That's the honest truth. People bully for many reasons. Most people say “It's because there insecure or lonely.”Or even some man-dame crap like that. The real reason why people do it, is because they find joy in making someone else life miserable and depressing. The sadness, the sorrow, and the pain that that person inflicts on another person is there happiness. They love to ruin love and beautiful experiences in another person's life. I've experienced this for five years, and it still haunts me to this day. Everyday when I woke up, I dreaded the day, the hour after hour of torture, the names I was called, and the fights I had. No one like the fat kid, especially the fat black Jehovah's Witness kid. I never celebrated holidays, or sang happy birthdays or even said the pledge. I was a walking target for people, especially for this one kid which will not be named. He was the start of it all. The pain and suffering. This one boy, ONE ruined everything. I never thought that one person could be so cruel and uncaring. Whenever I think of those days I being to get angry and frustrated.

Point is, people that bulling others online like face book or twitter have no lives. They are people who are cowards and worthless beings.

Possession

"Hey, that's mine!" Did you buy this? One might think to themselves. "This was never yours to begin with."

When someone claims something that does not belong to them, it's never right. If it's yours, it's yours, not someone Else's for the taking whenever they want or feel like it. Now, in this picture you see a woman trying to save HER house. Sadly, the house maybe hers, but in actuality, they house belongs to the true owners of the land that was sold illegally. In a case like this, the woman isn't wrong and the people who own the land aren't either, but there's nothing that she can do. Her house was made on illegally sold land. Now, does it make it right for those who are going to demolish her house right? No, it doesn't but that can not be changed. Her situation isn't good, shes losing her home, and possibly doesn't have any where else. Claiming back this land, isn't wrong but taking her house isn't. Situations like these usually don't go well as you can see but this is how it is. Nothing more.

life or die.

My life, or Yours? Many people wonder today why others risk there lives to save others. Some think that they do it out of the goodness of there hearts. They value not only there own but others as well. Those people don't wish to see death within there own lives so they'll risk there's to stop it if possible. Others on the other hand wont. There selfishness and ignorance for others lives is beyond wrong. They see life as “every man for himself”. They wont risk there lives because they fear of losing there own or perhaps they don't care for the other peoples humanity at all. The only life that is important to them, is there own. Now, in my opinion, I'd risk it. To save another ones life, is definitely worth giving it a shot. I would want some one to return the favor in saving me. No ones life is worthless. Everyone should have a chance to live life, be happy, to see the smile of there family and friends. I'd risk it all to save another if I could. In the end, risking it means everything.

The greatest Boxer that ever lived

The person that I want to go back in time to meet would be Muhammad Ali, the boxer. Muhammad was the one who inspired me to do boxing in the first place, besides getting stronger. I always wanted to know where he got his ideas for his rhymes and such. The one main thing that we would do is train together. I would do my best to fully understand his boxing style and why he chose to box like that in the first place. We would also visit different countries and would study their culture and learn new things and then continue to box. Then, I would ask him to help me understand his religion more so I can see how he views the world in which we live today and in return, I'd do the same. Next we would spar round after round to see who could last the longest in the ring without stopping. He would show me how to read other boxers movements more and more easier and go to the Olympics to box. Finally, we would just sit back relax and train others to their best in the boxing world. That is what I would if I could meet Ali, the greatest boxer that ever lived.



　

Winter break

 Over break I finally I got my temps over break at the DMV in Parma on  January 3rd.That had to be the highlight my break. Anyways, I also got to spend time with my brother Jullion, we had the best time. Besides his snoring that is horrible. Then we had went to Skate world over break and did our usual dance battle there. I won of course, as always but we still had a great time though. We also got to hang with our other friends as well. Then, I started doing  "insanity". A work out program that has been deemed the hardest workout plan on DVD. That's basically what I did over my short break. yeah.